His words has been painfully engraved on my conniving insanity
Yet numbed by enormous pain,
the flow on blood of disquieting images swirled in my mind.
Toxicating. Inviting. Appalling.
Until I was half dead, almost breathing, almost fantasizing. Bizarre .
My reality is heaved back to where it should not be.
I am listening.
I always listen, and I never was heard.
As always, I gave. I give a lot. I give too much.
Folly. I let people enjoy a warm bloodbath of my own senses.
A senselessness; absurd and devastating.
Thus far staggering and impeccable.
I am a beating pavement.
I am stepped on, lied on, used- but never noticed.
I am never believed. Never cared for.
I am a concrete for those who needs me.
They thought I was strong. They thought I cannot hear.
They thought I could not speak. They thought I cannot think.
And now they want me gone.
I am whining. That is all I was left to do.
Though futile, this is rather enough.
For once, I want to make a sound.
I want to flee for my life across a desolate
and lethal landscape of conspiracy I do not make.
[(lost_princess16@lycos.com)]
The most pathetic thing I did for love was...
I did almost everything for that person as if
I expected nothing in return,
yet deep inside I hoped [and still hoping!] that
somehow he felt [would feel] the same way
because it's damn hurting me to do it all for nothing.
Who I Want to Meet:
EMO JA NAi. . . SABiSHii DAKE ., [I'm not EMO, I'm just lonely]
aNyoNe ^_^
kiNd, sWeEt
iNsane[saMe as I am,, XD] pikA,'
tHose wHo hAvE tHe sAmE iNteRestS As miNe [coSplayinG, aniMes, eTc.]
oR anyOnE wHo fiNd tHosE tHingiEz
inTereSting,, ahecKz!!!!
aNd aS fOr a maTch,
bOyFriEnd,
or.. wHatevEr yOu waNt tO caLL iT..
I am stiLl seArchinG foR thAt sPeciaL soMeonE..
BuT,, I'm noT intO coMMitmEnt thoUgh,,
cUz I'm waY tOo buSy for tHat,,,
abOut mY sPeciaL sOmeonE...
I want hiM tO bE juSt likE my pRevioUs onE..
hE's d oNe whO unDerstaNds mE compLetelY..
hE accEptEd anD lOved tHe reaL mE,,
hMmn,, I miSs hiM,,,
I aM so stUpid LettinG hiM go,,
my Life suCks withOut hiM,,
I don't need someone nor anybody else!
I'm fine bein' alone... and bein' god da'mn broken .
Now I understand why some people
get themselves drunk...
it's not because they just want to get wasted,
but because they want to escape
each killing moment
they spend every fcukin' night
thinkin' 'bout what's happenin' with their dman life.
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