Friends, Activity Partners

Oct 2003

tulungagung and surabaya

SMILE

http://profiles.friendster.com/kabultan

MANYAR, Some University, BLCU

latte-ing, think-ing

Tsai Chih Chung's, Dale Carnegie's

My Neighbor the Yamada, Forest Gump, The Shawshank Redemption, The Taste of Tea, Stephen Chow's (guilty pleasure =p), Serendipity (because ... lily)

Hk's Beyond (especially: 漆黑的空间， 岁月无声）, some creative Japanese Artist

CURRENT ATTITUDE
I am not sure about anything. I don't mean to be pessimistic, I've heard the half-full glass thingy long long time ago that it has already rotten in my mind. I used to imagine a lot of things, and I had a lot of dreams about mega contribution to this world too, but I also understand that even Mother Theresa had never ruled a country, and HanFeiZi never had the chance to proof his ability, while stingy cockroaches could own real estates empire and evil barbies rule the world with mega expensive handbags. In other words: Life is not fair, and to hope is only part of the act, while the script of Heaven is already there and it will never be changed.

TAOISM
As time goes by, I'll always be the same me, the fool, the wise, or the in-between, all depends on where and when and how you witness my act. I am after all just a man, attributes and adjectives that people put to describe someone.. often are just illusions of theirs.

SUBSTANCES AND HEALTHS
There are nights when I don't drink beer, and those are not the best time to filming my biography. I am just trying to say that I like to drink beer, but I know my limit and I don't drink everyday, and to compensate I run, running good for the lung and for the brain. I run so that my brain won't get rusty because of the alcohol.
During the day, I am almost constantly under caffeine influence, when I haven't got any caffeine thingy yet, you could talk to my body, but that's not really me you're talking with. Yes, I am addicted to caffeine, but I've done my research and it seems that my daily portion of caffeine intakes is not considered harmful to one's health.

BRAIN
I am not sure whether I am smart or not. I am quite fast in doing logic thingy and I scored highest between my friends in Facebook's biggest brain. My IQ was 133 long time ago and it could be higher now. But I guess all of them don't say much about a person's intelligence. You can put me in a group of persons who are debating something, and I will look like a speechless idiot there, even if the topic debated is something I am familiar with. I don't understand about this tendency either.

RELIGION
I am an agnostic, I am not trying to be cool by proclaiming my self as agnostic instead of the usual atheist, it is just that the definition of agnostic suits me better. Deep in my heart, I really want to believe in certain religion, but I know, and God knows my mind (at least for now) is not programmed for that.

LOVE and GIRLS
I used to believe that a person should only have one love in a lifetime in a sense that one should not keep changing girlfriends, but I changed my mind. It does not really make sense as you really cannot marry a person before you got to know him/her, although I also think that people really should be clearer that getting to know each other doesn't have to be "that physical," but hey, people don't really regard chastity as that important anymore anyway.
I appreciate woman who appreciate herself. I even sometimes admire Islamic women who wear Jilbab, before you make any judgment, you might want to read this very interesting TIME's article: http://www.time.com/time/world/article/0,8599,1585994,00.html


UNSOLVED
Lastly, the things that trouble me most lately, I often think that I have first grade Kobe beef grilled in my mind, but when it gets out from my mouth it becomes your average beef like one you see in burger, sometimes it doesn't even come out from my mouth and is gone, as if someone hide inside my brain to steal them from me. I don't know what to do.

HOBBIES
I am a clueless thinker who ask too often and a lousy writer who write too much. Basically, I am almost a normal human with hobbies, but sometimes in representing my ideas my writing does it better than my speaking, so if you want to see the less normal of my thinking you can visit my philosophical frustration in the form of writing at my blog: http://wa.blog.friendster.com/