Friends

Oct 2003

Quezon City

http://profiles.friendster.com/jaisan

Saint Mary's College Q.C., Notre Dame of Greater Manila, E.R.H.S., University of the East, Systems Technology Institute, University of the Philippines Diliman, Informatics International College

cheesy poet, wannabe writer, graphic artist

fame, fortune and glory

anything by Tracy Hickman & Margaret Weiss / Sidney Sheldon

azumi, my sasy girl, windstruck

blink182, box car, racer, fenixtx, yellowcard, paramore new found glory, alien ant farm, taking back sunday, the early november, the ataris, fallout boy, student rick, the movielife, saosin, bowling for soup, dashboard confessional, hawthorne heights, jimmy eat world, coheed and cambria, thrice, rufio, finch, tori amos, catch 22, the movielife, emo punk, skate punk, asian kung-fu generation, the brilliant green, l'arc en ciel, x japan, globe, utada hikaru

Capricorn

APPLE TREE (the Love) -
of slight build, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction,
pleasant aura, flirtatious, adventurous, sensitive,
always in love, wants to love and be loved,
faithful and tender partner, very generous,
scientific talents, lives for
today, a carefree philosopher with imagination.

im not weird, im unique (at least i like to think of me that way). i am boring, boring, boring!
i am ugly, i am nothing, i am stupid, i am lame, i am pathetic, i am a freak, i am redundant, opting to do nothing and say nothing, i am a loser. i
cant make up my mind most of the time and i prefer to sleep
than go out. i am a kid, i'm never growing up.

jason you are a waste, you are nothing, people who associate themselves with you are wasting their time, you are a moron, you tend to mess up even the simplest things, you have no future, you are indefinite, you are boring and lame, so callused are you that you never see the obvious, so ugly that nobody notices you, so predictable that no one never wants to go out with, you are no fun, monotomous and repetative, you have nothing to offer for you have nothing, your peers hate you, how can they if you too hate yourself, look yourself in the mirror and spit! hate! hate! hate! and maybe if you are lucky you will have the courage to kill yourself and end all of this never-ending looping circle everybody calls "life". if this is life then i must not be missing a whole lot. i'd rather succumb to the shadows and rest, sleep, die.

i really am bored of doing this everytime i hit the
keyboard, but it seems to me that i really have
nothing more to do. no sense of purpose
whatsover, i really want to change yet all the
motivation is gone, the fire is out, all that is left is
the cold and sad realization that i might die or live
my life alone, unfullfilled, unloved and continuing to
write worthless journals like this that only will
deepen my loneliness and desparation.

anybody who think that they can reinvent my whole
way of thinking message me, post me a
message, let's talk about it, may be you can make
me happy.....