Nam

University of California - Irvine, 參加 1996 - 2000, 年 , 學士學位, Economics/Women Studies

PeopleWatcher/Helping People makes me happy

Scorpio

I don't want to start
Any blasphemous rumours
But I think that God's
Got a sick sense of humour
And when I die
I expect to find Him laughing
-dm

Character:
Though I'm quick to act without explanation, my intentions are most often sound, but "If you're not being criticized, then you're probably not doing much" anyway. Many don't like me because they take my kindness for granted as though I owe them something. I ask for nothing and refuse to be in debt to anyone. From observation and experience... I've come to acknowledge people who are true; ones who extend their arms when I lay in gutter with nothing to offer. I'm still very naive, but more weary of my surroundings. A hero of mine once said "I don't do diplomacy," which is how I've come to evolve. To all the sideline politics... everybody is a critic, but very few are criticized.

Be cautious of those who are crafty, sly, and two faced (seems most are). Be especially mindful of the ones with a nice smile. Most people I've observed proceed solely on a selfish foundation. All too often the heart flaunting on their sleeve falls short to their true colors, surfacing a hideous face as their motivations are not satisfied. Camouflaged with a deceitful smile... as hyenas, they feed their hunger of malicious and vicious laughter, meticulously aiming to inflict pain for consumption. A "likeable person" only suggests they have a good heart... but doesn't mean they do. I consider very few people as friends, surrounding myself with those who know where they come from and are genuinely humble regardless of their background. I barricade myself with past experience and cynicism. And with that perception of the world, I wake knowing I'm extremely lucky and must give to those who are less fortunate.

Apologies mean nothing to me. Often times contrition insults me. Just because one says sorry, does not mean things will be the same. I'm a person who rarely accepts apologies. If I accept yours... then you must be very special to me, or I've been disillusioned by your charm.

Romantically: i just met her.
General: if you don't like me... don't try to befriend me. it will annoy me severely. those who shake my hand only to slander me in my absence... raise my eyebrows to their existence. i wonder 'what purpose they serve crossing paths with me?' maybe it's to test my patience, or maybe it's to remind me that God creates butterflies as well as maggots. i don't believe in the cliche that states "all things happen for a reason," but as tribulations surface, i wonder how the experience will shape my thoughts and actions. often times it spurs a desire to allow an artistic development of revenge. quick and shocking responses are effective, but long meticulously thought out reprisals are sweeter and much more fulfilling. the longer drawn out, the more colorful in exacting a complete answer. slow, deliberate, calm, and precise. there's rarely a better feeling than detailed outcome that has been executed accurately. demise... the complete definition. it happens. and yes, it's still deep and fresh, as though it happened just yesterday.
Business: When it comes to business... I strongly believe there are no second chances.
Global Import/Export/Sourcing/RE Development Contacts.
Socially:Not as many people these days but a few who are reserved, down to earth, don't think they're better than others because they were born into money or recently came into power, and has something interesting to talk about. Not "everyone is worth knowing;" but "everyone we meet are fighting their own battles & have stories to share, but be weary of those who break your heart." Be weary of those who are cheap and/or inconsiderate. For the few I'd like to meet... I want to hear their stories & spend at least a few hours in their company. =) Also be careful of those who are selfishly motivated & deceiving... HOWEVER SWEET THEY MAY SEEM. Words are cheap, those with many words are very cheap, and sweet talkers are shamelessly cheap. Often times they have some kind of sob story where they lay victim to their "generous heart." Followed by your pity they somehow become the hero of their story after paying for your meal. Try listening to those who don't limit themselves to self pity sob stories and/or words you want to hear. And most of all... listen to yourself.

there are few people in my life and thus when fallout knocks, it sharply tolls my spirit. but i've settled on believing that lost affection is by no means a loss at all. friends cannot be lost. only those who are not important are shed from our lives... similar to cutting loose sandbags in order for a hot air balloon to rise. friends support me when i've failed, pass light to my flaws, and believe i will defeat my evils. when my friends fail, i don't offend them with condolences. i gather their failure as my own. i am to blame when my friends fall short. until they succeed, i do not. i rarely welcome acquaintances let alone consider new friends... most people i know are associates. unless there is potential in sharing thoughts over quiet time... i won't belittle you by loosely referring to you as a friend. i often hear people refer to me as their friend, but they don't know my last name and further more will never share my insecurities. not to say they are not worthy of friendship... just no history or dialogue has been established to claim such esteem.