Aiko Secret-shh

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1000 words:
i'm not as cool or pretty or popular or fun as all your
other friends, no doubt. but i'll definitely always try my
best to make you smile. i like a lot of different kinds of
music, but i used to get into it a lot more. i like to
play basketball and to run, but i'm not especially talented
in either. i like to write, but i'll never be as good at
that as i'd like to be. i love my friends madly, but i
think they appreciate me a lot more than i appreciate them,
and for that i apologize. i try very hard not to hold onto
anything too tightly, because i hate to lose... and it
hurts more when you lose something you regard highly. i've
worked at a video store for over a year now, and i love
it. i'm going to work in a computer lab soon. i want to
be successful and happy, just like anybody else. i want to
die before my presence becomes more of a burden than a
blessing. i like origami, but i don't know that much. i
like to sew, but i'm not that creative; i just steal other
people's ideas and make improvements [that's my japanese
side]. my parents are almost divorced. i sleep in a bed
with my mother. i have an older brother; he's a school
teacher. he used to teach me drums&bass stuff... when we
both lived at my old house. he threatened to shave off all
my hair, too. i have brown hair; it's two and a half feet
long. i haven't cut it since i was in the second grade.
actually, i lied, i chopped it seven inches because someone
i care about told me they like shorter hair, and i just
wanted to prove that i can be frivolous, and that even the
things i care about most, i can part with without a second
thought. a lot of the people i respect the most, are my
peers. i don't have very many close friends (maybe
three?), but i have a lot of acquaintances. they say it's
because i talk a lot, or smile a lot... but i just think
it's because i overexert myself in too many different
facets, and by default i happen to meet more people. i
hope to be published before i die, but if not, those that i
care about know what to do with my work. i talk a lot, but
it's a defense mechanism to avoid judgment. a friend once
told me that when she walks with me, she feels purposeful.
i attend ucla; it was my first choice. i'll be a second
year in the fall. i'm an English major, but i'd like to
double major in communications. not sure why though; i've
yet to determine what i'd like to do with my life. i fear
failure. i don't handle criticism well. i've yet to meet
a boy who's more cheesy than i am. neither have i met a
knight. or someone who'll make me feel completely demure
(but that's probably because i'm pretty far from it). [or
maybe it's because i've stopped looking for boys.] i name
the inanimate objects that i love: ursula is my compaq,
roxy is my integra. i think bowling is a dirty, dirty
thing. i believe in an island where one-hit-wonder's all
live (like Harriet from Small Wonder, or Evie from Out of
This World), along with those who're [not really] deceased
(like tupac and biggie). i can sing the whole Charles in
Charge theme song ("new boy in the neighborhood..."), but
not in public... so don't ask. in fact, i know the whole
California Dreamin' theme, too. [surf dudes with
attitudes.. ] i've never scared a pigeon, to my
recollection. i don't wear hats because my hair is too
long. i don't wear sunglasses because they never look
right on my face. i don't wear make-up, because i don't
know how. i used to shop thrift, but not so much anymore.
i'm afraid of bodies of water, but i'm getting over it. i
like it when i see people with flower bouquets or balloons
in their cars. i like ice cream, especially mint chocolate
chip. i'm stubborn, but perseverant. i whine a lot.
crunchy cheetos and peanut m&ms are my comfort foods. i
have a dog; she's a mutt like me. oh yeah, i'm half-
japanese, half-white. my mom is the japanese one. my dad
was in the navy. it's the generic hapa story, if you don't
know. i get jealous easily, because i am insecure about
myself. hence, trying hard not to attach myself to
anything too strongly. i tend to keep most negative
emotions to myself; i feel outward (as in, public)
expression is a weakness. i'm a slow reader. i type
faster than i hand-write. i'm monolingual, despite four
years of spanish and a japanese mother. i used to play
trumpet and violin, but i can't play either now. i've
driven into a stationary object. i've been hit by a big-
rig truck on the freeway. i have mild road rage. i
curse. i like white pants, but they dislike me. my eyes
are brown. i like shoes. i never buy cds; i only listen
to mp3s. i like mixtapes, a lot. i've given blood two
times, but tried to do it, three. i've attended: patton
elementary, bell junior high, and cypress high school.
i've been to japan three times. i'm a picky eater. i've
raised nine mice. i'm allergic to an obscure brand of
laundry detergent. i crave stability and validation. i
wear a red bracelet when i'm on my rag. my favorite color
is cerulean. i prefer rain to sun; i prefer winter to
summer (though all seasons in california have their
perks.) i'm addicted to the internet. i find it difficult
to entertain serious conversation with people unless i have
affection for them. i think respect is more important than
love. i've never been to vegas.

don't wanna meet nobody.. just following peer pressure..
*sigh*