26K Fan Nation RUBY [BIW]

trinity college.st.joseph's college.st.scho.

student.dancer.model modelan.haha.

st.scholastica's dance club, de la salle dance company-jazz, dls-sti varsity cheering squadu, 26k

dancing, dancing...sleeping

sunshine-norma klein

chicago, moulin rouge, save d last dance, centerstage, honey chka brng it on agen.haha.

fall for u, overjoyed, dnt chnge, frst believe, tl i gt over u, f i wer u, sober, m wokn away and you

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i m knd of emotional,sayng nd doin wt i fil.f i knw sm1 luvs me,i cnt show t n rturn bt i hate dat flng of pleading wd sm1 4 luv,ts 2 demeaning.nd i wudnt care wt ppl myt say.so den,i came along nd i ges evry1 was real dsappntd.i m 1 of those wriggly,fresh lil kids dat gets n2 evrythn nd messes thngs up.smtyms i thnk dat f we had evrythng,dat wud b too mch.i hav so mch mor dan mst ppl,nyway dan mst ppl evr hav.i knw dat prtly i ges bcz i was n a rltionshp once nd t wsnt gud.so i knw wat gud is.i thnk alot of ppl nver know.alot of grls myt hav styed wid someone nd thot dat was wat lyf was ol about,wudnt evr xpct 2 get mor.bt i knew der was mor.jst knd of by instnct,i knew.i thnk u hav 2 trust ur instinct about those thngs.wn i was stll n highschool,i was always n a rottn mood den.always cmplaining.nw i fil i had a ryt 2 b.i min.i thnk ppl dsrve 2 b cheated.of course hu said i hd 2 b stupd at 19 espcly?ye.i realzd dat.it was my choice nd sort of a dumb one.ts so crzy,bt mom has nvr rili luvd me nd i fil lyk i mst hav done smthng bad 2 mke her fil dat way.id almost rather thnk t jst hpnd.for no gud rison.prtly,whch is funny.i thnk i remind her of herself.i look like her.i hav long hair like hers and pretty,kind of sassy nd smart.nd i thnk i was lyk her in being kind of emotional.

i dnt wnt 2 evr fil sm1 hs 2 sty wd me,out of duty or rspnsblty or nythng.i can cope.i knw i can.nd if there isn't love btwn us,den let it be over.mybe i say dat now.nd later i won't.bt i think i mean it.being married i knw isnt evythn.it isnt nothng either.i am nt one of those ppl dat fils marriage is ded nd d thng 2 do s jst go frm 1 man 2 d next or 2 b married 4 tyms.no, i lyk d idea of being wd 1 man ol my lyf,til m 70 or 80 smthng,being a grndma or evn a great grandma.i dnt mind the humdrum part of being wd sm1 day aftr day.ppl thot it was dat.dey thot i was 2 young nd jst wnted xctmnt nd wasnt mature enuf.no,dey wer ol wrong.i lyk having d sme guy come home 2me evryday nd cooking 4him nd luvng hm.