' Andy II

Maquiling School Inc., UP Rural High School, UP Los Banos

call boi, instructor, nomad, free spirit

art, books, perfumes, malls, watching concerts and shows, roaming, home decorating, organizing, thinking, sunsets and sunrise(s), pillows, the colors green and brown, blue & white, red, white beaches, the ocean breeze and the fierce winds of the high seas, online shopping, cozy places, snuggling, hugging, cuddling, kissing, looking at the stars while lying on the grass...

The Anatomist by Andahazi, Perfume by Suskind, The Reader by Schlink, Night by Wiesel, Man's Search for Meaning by Frankl, The Locket by Evans, Tuesdays with Morrie, Rich Dad Poor Dad, self-help books, books about love written by Nicholas Sparks, Niall Williams and Richard Paul Evans

korean/asian movies like Daddy Long Legs (ganda ne2), Windstruck (naiiyak ako pag pinapanood ko to), My Sassy Girl, The Last Present, A Time to Love (Chinese); Milan, All My Life, This Boy's Life, Stand by Me, The Man Without a Face, The Talented Mr. Ripley, Little Man Tate, The Crime of Padre Amaro, Titanic, A Very Long Engagement and all other movies about eternal love

R & B, classical, pop, jazz, diverse, lounge; favorite songs: Tattooed on My Mind by D'Sound; Angel by Sarah McLachlan; The Prayer by Celine Dion, The Warrior is a Child by Gary Valenciano; Everyday by Agot Isidro

Oprah, home design shows like Dress My Nest, My Celebrity Home, Designer Finals, Design Remix, Get Color!, Clean House, Extreme Makeover Home Edition, practical jokes programs like Scare Tactics, Girls Behaving Badly, Just for Laughs, and Punk'd, etc

I am Andy, and I am 33 years old. I am not afraid to disclose my age. I have no reason to be secretive about it. I have decided to be more honest, to be truer and more authentic to myself, as well as to others. I also have decided to be less apologetic. I do recognize that my ultimate accountability is towards God alone.

I can tell you now that I have made very stupid decisions in the PAST. And yes, I do regret some of those decisions. But then again, I also know that regrets don't work. Unless of course those regrets would drive us to change for the better. The past is the past. Whatever happened then remains there. I can never undo what I have already done. But I do believe that God can redeem the past---the lost days, the lost years. This year, I plan to continue to be healed from the wounds of my past as well as to heal the wounds that I have caused others to suffer.

Regarding the FUTURE, it is still unclear. My life has always been a series of uncertainties and it continues to be that way still. A nomad, a drifter, a learner, a dreamer, a traveler ----that is Andy. And shall I finally attain success? Shall I finally become the envy of others as well as the pride of my parents? I don't really know. As much as I want to, my limitations and weaknesses constrain me to achieve the heights of success, or at least the glory of success as defined by this world. But come to think of it, I know I have been successful already. I've already experienced and learned about love. I have developed meaningful relationships; I have collected priceless memories. Aren't these the essence of life and existence?

And now let me talk about the PRESENT. I am still alive, thank God. I am still often troubled and haunted by anxious thoughts and feelings. I have long acknowledged the fact that I suffer from depression and suicidal thoughts....CONT'D...

CONT'D....The mirror still tells me of my physical flaws --- an overweight body, receding hairline, flawed skin and teeth, a more matured appearance. Have I really lost my youth? Perhaps. Perhaps I can regain it too through exercise and proper diet. I don't really know.

When I was younger, my dreams and aspirations were simple. I just wanted friends, someone/individuals to eat lunch with. I guess I still have that wish. I long for loving relationships---with my family, with my existing friends, with new acquaintances, with myself, and most importantly with my God. These individuals define the meaning of my life, my bases of success and happiness.
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