Barbie Hsu 徐熙媛 大S

Barbie Hsu Hsi Yuan Chinese: 徐熙媛; pinyin: Xu Xiyuan

走同样一条路，
身旁人不同，
心情也不同，
故事也不同，
回忆却越来越多。

我深深相信，轰轰烈烈只有一次。
刻骨铭心只有一次，椎心刺痛也只有一次。

现在时间是11点48分。
我必须在12点以前写完这篇。
因为今天是14日。
如果我们还没分手的话。
已经在一起2年7个月了。
请原谅我特别记得这天。
因为我已经过了2年5个多月庆祝这一天的日子。
所以原谅我这一辈子都会特别关心这一天。

有一个人收集眼泪，每一片海洋都是一群心碎女孩的眼泪。

一不小心。
我又回到了那天。
被撕裂同时被挖空的感觉又回来了。


没有人能超越肉体用心灵去爱。
我想我可以。
但没人配合。

如果你只在乎他爱不爱别人。
而不在乎太爱不爱你。
那你要的不是爱而是占有。

吵架的时候。
送我一朵向日葵。
表示道歉。
庆祝的时候。
送我一朵向日葵。
表示爱我。
分手的时候。
送我一朵向日葵。
表示没有下一朵。

爱情是属于付出越多，失去也就越多的东西。
你以为怀疑，他就会更爱你吗？
你以为担心，他就不会走吗？

我可以跟你穿一样的衣服，戴一样的耳环，
用一样的发型。做同样的表情和动作。
但是为什么我不能像你一样狠心？

以前你的生日很特别。
我要特别记得。
现在你的生日更特别。
我得特别去忘掉。

一个你爱的
一个爱你的
想选择也没得选

我恨透了离开时候的关门声，我就他妈的把门封了。
谁都不准进来，也他妈的不准走。

如果他说爱你比海深。
其实只像条水沟深。
所以别听他说。
要用心感觉。
我感觉到我只有一滴水深。

我以为我忘不了他，结果真的还是忘不了。。。
我以为我不会真的爱上你，可是我却真的爱上了你。。。

不见棺材不掉泪。
不和你分开不知道爱你。

我可以在你的心里落地。
但为什么却不能生根？

当别人叫你别再爱了。
你说你无法自拔。
当别人叫你别再哭了。
你说你不能自几。
我想你去当别人会好一点。

我要你来，你就会来。我要你走，你就会走。你说我控制你。
你来了，我很高兴。你不来，我就担心。现在你走了，我心痛至极。你说，谁控制谁？

有很多事是难以形容的。
比如说爱的快乐。
比如说失去的痛苦。。。

失去你之后。
我首先痛苦。
再来无奈。
最后成长。




有人说，地球是蓝色的，像从宇宙深处看到的颜色，
　　有人说，地球是透明的，像我们在空气中能看到彼此。
　　我说，地球应该是彩色的。
　　蓝如那一片壮阔的蓝天，
　　绿如儿时家门前的草地，
　　深邃如看不到尽头的海洋，
　　黄如养育着万物肥沃的土地，
　　白……如梦里那片纯净无暇的棉田。
　　儿时看到的地球，的的确确是彩色的。
　　不记得从什么时候开始，地球变得黯淡了。
　　一百年后，我们的孩子们，会看到一个怎样的地球？
　　他们是否依然拥有那一束代表着希望的晨光？
　　他们是否还能拥抱大海，赞叹着一片壮阔的海岸线？
　　他们还像我们小时候一样在树林玩耍吗？
　　他们还守着那一片珍贵的棉田，与柔软的美棉相伴，过着舒适自然地精致生活吗？
　　为了地球的未来，
　　也为了我们的未来。
　　从今天开始，
　　让我们一起回归自然，珍惜自然。
　　因为自然，
　　所以，
　　才有未来。


徐熙媛 / 大S

ME, THE TRUTH

I always want to learn any kind of things, like sports and foreign languages.
I always think that I can do it.
I always remain optimistic.
I adore my character.

IN FRONT OF MY BOYFRIEND

In front of the family and my friends, I am like big sister who does not have a weakness. My boyfriend is the only person who can discover my weak side and femininity. One can say that it my boyfriend who knows me (true me).

TO FALL IN LOVE

It is obvious that love is splendid. To be liked by somebody one likes, it is an unforgettable happiness. However, perhaps that there is that independent women who can benefit from the fruit of the love . I hope to be able to find a balance between my work, my personal businesses, time to be alone, the time devoted to family and friends, and time for my boyfriend.

ABOUT LOSING ONESELF

I do not have any idea on what the future holds for me, if one should pose me the question. My philosophy is rather of living.

MY DESTINY IS IN MY HANDS

I do not like to consult my future indicators. It does not interest me to know the future. I am very sure of me, (I can change my destiny)

Before doing something, anything, traveling or falling in love, I always prepare for the worst case. It is a necessary preparation before fighting to obtain the best. I, with the pessimistic air one has seen, but makes the thought of it is positive.

A DEFINITION OF MY CHARACTER: INVINCIBLE

My character is like that of a boy, at the same time I have female side. My English Name (Barbie) comes from (Barbie doll). Many friends find me (real tomboy, but fascinated by sumptuous things. This kind of contradiction is appropriate perfectly for the name Barbie)

THE TURNING OF MY LIFE

I have 3 dogs and 2 rabbits for pets.

Meeting my small dog (Wu Mei Niang) was the turning point of my life. It barks all the time, sometimes it bites. In spite of its bad characters, it is an angel in my eyes. My life has changed much for it.

It is the reason for which I became vegetarian. One day it was very sick, I prayed to God. (if the life of wu mei niang is saved, I will stop eating meat for one year). Perhaps God heard me. Wu Mei Niang was saved.

I held my promise to God. One year after, I realized that all the animals must be saved, and I became definitively vegetarian. Now, Wu Mei Niang is always in full form, and my health improved. It is thanks to God and Wu Mei Niang.

OLDER SISTER

I keep contact with my friends each day. We often chat on different subjects, because there is no important concern. This kind of communication is simply to feel well. Thus the support of friends gives me courage. Each one of us is different, I will never be bored if I see them everyday.
Personally, I do not like to speak about my concern to the others. But since always, my friends and my sisters count on me to give advice. I respect their choice and I remain with them until the end. I am their "older sister", and that makes me good.

JEALOUSY

I grew in a modest medium. The word (jealousy) does not exist in the dictionary of my family. My knowledge on this kind of emotion comes from my work when certain people criticize me.

INFERIORITY COMPLEX

I do not like my right ear because it is drawn up a little. Since I learned the history of Vincent Van Gogh who cut his ear for his self-portrait, I wanted to make the same thing. I want to change the form of my ear.

With my character, I would like to become more courageous. At present, I am afraid of heights, I fear water and ghosts. I want to be able to live all alone. It is said that the woman will become very brave as soon as it puts a child unto the world. I wait until this day arrives.



SUN OF THE FAMILY>
if my family is a solar system, then I am the sun. Among the 3 sisters, I am oldest. My mother counts much on me. My big sister is like Pluton: very small, very weak, but perfect. She is nice and timid, is never annoyed against the others, never jealous towards the others, always happy. If I can choose the characters of a robot, that will be those of my big sister.

My little sister is like the ground. She is in form all the time. Each morning she wakes up by thinking that (still a splendid day, life is beautiful! ) She is very positive.



I believe that my thought is positive. Although death is inevitable, I never think that (I have enough of it to live). The life is if amusing, that would be damage to drop it.

CURRENTLY I AM VERY HAPPY

My family and my friends are happy. My pets are well. Happiness is to be able to protect those whom I like.

10 YEARS AFTER

I will want to become a woman who help all her friends.

MATERNAL INSTINCT

some think that (to be liked is happiness), but I find that (to like is also happiness). I like to protect others. My maternal instinct is so strong, that I (protected) same as my mother with her friends.