love. i get so lost sometimes. days pass & this emptiness fills my heart. when i want to run away, i drive off in my car. but whichever way i go, i come back to the place you are. all my instincts, they return. and the grand facade, soon will burn. without a noise, without my pride, i reach out from the inside. in your eyes. the light the heat. i am complete. i see the doorway to 1000 churches. the resolution of all the fruitless searches. i see the light & the heat. oh, i want to be that complete. i want to touch the light the heat i see in your eyes. love. i don't like to see so much pain. so much wasted & this moment keeps slipping away. i get so tired of working so hard for our survival. i look to the time with you to keep me awake & alive. & all my instincts, they return. & the grand facade so soon will burn. without a noise, without my pride, i reach out from the inside. in your eyes. the light the heat. in your eyes. i am complete. in your eyes.
you left me a testamonial like, a month ago... and i read it but forgot to approve it. now it doesn't make any sense, but i approved it anyway. oh well. friendster kinda sucks... it does seem to do a pretty good job of making people travel thousands miles though.
a short bit ago i fell and landed on my head. it was an eye opening experience, and when my eyes did open...there was meaghan. i began to fear that i had not awoken at all. that this world was one i had created inside my comatose trapped brain. gradually, i decided that it didn't matter if this was the reality i had forged in my twisted psyche or not. what was important was that of all the infinite possibilities of worlds i could have created, this one had meaghan in it. this is the one i chose. if i were to awaken now, i believe that i would have no other option then to find the staircase down which i had fallen...and dive right back in.
i am caught in some kind of time portal love affair with this girl. if only i knew how to build a potato canon, i would surely have won her heart all those years ago. it is an understatement to say that M has enough bad information on me to rumplesltiltskin my first born out from under me. i also believe there to be evidence that she is a spy leaking information to the russians. in which case someone should probably just go ahead and tell her that the cold war ended years ago, and that we are laughing at her for her useless espionage. if i were not on the other side of the continent, i would spend all of my time throwing rocks at people's windows, until i finally found hers. then, i would insist that she come out and go play on the swings with me.
meaghan and i used to speak
frequently. and yea verily, it was
good. now i never see her online
anymore. and i am sad. like a puppy
who just ate chocolate.
I've known her for so long it's hard
for me to beleive. It is so funny to
have M LO as a friend straight from
monsterland to the bars. If you don't
know her you should and if you do, you
the crazy fun!
my clogged and overworked heart
frequently. and yea verily, it was
good. now i never see her online
anymore. and i am sad. like a puppy
who just ate chocolate.
for me to beleive. It is so funny to
have M LO as a friend straight from
monsterland to the bars. If you don't
know her you should and if you do, you
the crazy fun!